Beeeeeeee!!!

Human emotions, one cannot run away from them; can they.
At your lowest point you remember the past and in a state of shock you remember you have to go tomorrow to work.

Conflicted thoughts
And
Lost words

Lost in the infinity of a "Normal Life"

Expression is the only thing which differentiates an artist from a "a person who has a job"

(Of anonymous words to unknown writer for a invisible addressee)

taking sides!

They say, if you don't have an opinion then you don't exist. Let it be right or wrong but you should stand for something.

Diplomacy is a disease which kills the essence out of the good, and leaves you with a lot less people in your life. It soaks the living sense out of you and shuns you in the deep corners of self denial and grief.
For once taking sides might make you the bad, but it leaves smiles on the face you care about. I say its all worth it, if you want to see the same faces after five years still being a part of your lives, rest are just a blur going through the motions of your life.

There are things which are not done, not said, not acted upon and the build up to resentment and self doubt. Lending a hand and lifting a person up from the darkness is the fact of the matter. But that darkness and grey should not pull you inside so that you, yourself drown in the grey and the ugly.

Time and again when faced by complex human emotions, these words help me make sense of it all. Emotions have many facets but I guess I've blunted a few of them inside of myself. They have eroded over the years and shown me the real image of myself. But in the process left me with cavities.

Ive always masked my real emotions by my words but today all I want to say is, I can't be emotionally stretched, because thats one thing that will pushes me towards things which I have left behind. Life is simple for me, I have goals and a long bucket list and I live, and let others Live.
I let people make their own mistakes and learn from them, I accept them as they are, then again my intolerance for certain judgmental people is increasing, and I don't know what to do of it. I'm at that stage of my life, when I look behind I see a blur.
And my fears are coming true once again, but this time I'm stronger and it would be lot easier going through it.

Seasons change
Destinations change
We Evolve.

Free of Judgement

Its disappointing when you are judged by your actions rather than your Work.

Its even more disappointing when your actions are judged on the behest of care and concern. As a strong,independent,free willed person its easy for me to take in everything and just brush it off labeling it as kiddish and stupidity, but its hearting to see some close ones take a hard hit due to the same.

There is a thin line between the good, bad and the ugly and moments like these teach us lessons which help us determine them. Symbols emerge and patterns are drawn for us, to record history. The kind of history which tells us how to deal with certain kind in the future.

We live in a Collective society where decision are made by communities but then I think individualism is something which comes to us intrinsically, we have grown up with it, ours is the generation which has the advantage of freedom of expression and we shall stand and show us, our worth to the unworthy.

So with a very heavy heart and no expression, all I say is certain things are just not worth it. Make your self worthy and show your worth to the ones who see you for your work rather than who you lead you life. Life is too short for the unworthy and you meet hundreds of people during your life time. Some stick, spread smiles and laughter, the others fade away leaving us with lessons.

On my Mind Aerosimth - Amazing
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A small addition to this post.
About a year back I read this statement "People don't change, they become more of themselves". And every time I go through complex out pour of human emotions, I remember this sentence and smile (Life moves on even if it's at a snail's pace)

Bucket List!

“By recording your dreams and goals on paper, you set in motion the process of becoming the person you most want to be.” - Mark Victore Hansen

Bucket list for me is something which gets me through the rough part of my life the anger of a traffic jam, the stress of a day job, the agony of getting into a local train during rush hours, the scorching heat of a field survey afternoon and many more things which makes one want to give up.

My bucket list inspires me to keep going and gives me a reason to get up each morning and inspires me to turn my thoughts into action and gives me a purpose to live each day without any regret. Because at the end the day when I read my list and I know I am getting closer to my goal and all the hard work is worth on more tick on my bucket list.

Being a huge sports enthusiast since childhood, I want to visit Brazil during the 2014 FIFA world cup, watch Indian Cricket team in action in the 2011 World Cup, cover all four tennis courts across the world; Australian Open, French Open, Wimbledon , U.S Open and play on pebble beach golf course.

Next up on the list is publishing a book, I have been a blogger for six years now and this one wish on my bucket list is one thing which drives me each day. It inspires me to read more and more, until one day when I finally complete my book and actually sell a few copies. Till then I wish to write for each and every magazine and web content portal in India, the journey has already started and I have a long way to go. I as a writer want to leave behind some words which generations after me read.

My dream company is IMG, the biggest Sports Management company in the world and everyday I work towards getting there one day. That’s the destination before that there are many milestones to be crossed.

My bucket list won’t be complete without the mention of my wish to touch all the continents in my life time. And specially visit Egypt, South Africa, Phuket Islands, Bali, Bahamas, Caribbean, Switzerland, Maldives, Spain, France the list keeps on increasing each day and so does my determination to fulfill my bucket list.

We all have dreams as children, some come true and the others fade away in the real world. And then there some which drive us each day.

P.S - this post wasn't typed for the blog.

{dot} Dot {dot}

few birthdays forgotten,
few days lost,
a
blank
state.

lonesome words
isolated thoughts
caged within.

rising fury
cracks in conscious
cliff down

and the phoenix awaits!

Metal again!

When life acts HARD!

you hit back harder...

One - Metallica

I to I

I can't write anything, good anymore

huh !! when have you even written anything good ???

You just write... that's it

Now, better get over yourself,

YOU lazy creature!!

And better Start

WORKING!!


I'v learnt a Lesson :P

you wont feel a thing when those colors fade,
the same words seem so lifeless,
the charm goes away,

even the emptiness doesn't exist anymore...


your life seems like a painted wall...


and you often say nothing...

which is actually true!

...

... and I stand
to light the fire,
till it burns, inside of me.

P.S- Can anyone throw light on the skills a Management student should acquire during his/her MBA program.
Please mail me at aditigupta02@gmail.com (its my pre-orientation assignment)

Music!

Some songs have been there forever and u'v heard them before,
you stumble upon them again and get hooked.

Sacrifice - Elton John

Believe - Cher

It Must have been Love - OST Pretty Women

Lemme know about the songs you stumble upon.

P.S - Currently I am in between certain events, once I am done ill let you know what I exactly meant. I always find lessons and reasons from events taking place in my place but from a few, I just couldn't find any so I blamed "Destiny".

Why does everything which you expect
Never Happens
And everything which you don't
Just Happens.

Why are some things,
worth nothing,
just Nothing.

Why do they even happen
if everything happens for a reason.
Why does some things have
No Reason
nor
a Result.

Anyway you gotta listen to Jason Mraz's I'm Yours.
I can't seem to get over this song and him :P
(its the Karaoke version)

2008.......2009

The year 2008
I'd had planned to get a job,
now I got two :D
Achieved a lot,
Read a lot,
Gotta know a lot
Had a blast.

hmmm
but kinda closed up entirely
to others
and opened up to a few
stopped being my Social self
become harsh and stupid
thank god my friends
stuck around :D

Eased up on aloota things
picked up a few bad habits
no more rules
was the flavor this year.

But finally
this phase is past me
and I am going back
to my social self.
But gotta stick
to a few of those habits
keeps me sane.

No resolution
No predictions
for the next
I hope it turns out
with me still writing
for 2009.

peace

Love
Hate
Sorrow
Cheers
Happiness
Gloom

For some these would never be,
We often chase after them,
But in a second
we loose them ALL

No more Coffee
No more laughter
Just
No more....

Leopard Cafe marks a lotta fond memories for me,
I wrote those lines there
which I posted on the 16th

How can anyone spray bullets like this
No one has the right on my life
In the moment of numbness
I find myself helpless
and tied .

But
As my dear friend says,
These things will happen
you cant stop them
all you can do is
control them.

"its time to unite".
Yes it is.

Guilt is colored GREY

What you give,
is what YOU get.

Karm karo, fal ki isscha mat karo
Zeewan ke rah par chalte chalo

If Only

If only I had faith,
If only I could go back,
If only I was wiser,
If only it never happened.

I lost what was mine,
and I blame myself.

Again a loner
this time with a
bunch of caretakers
I walk with faith
and desire


"Faith is faith in Oneself"

The pitcher looks empty
no wonder I can
find poetry in the
curves of a roof top
staring aimlessly
at the face in white .

I was in a dreamland
But those dreams
never find a reality

They will always exist as
illusions and soon would be
forgotten under the tides of time

Unless you make them
Real when sober

There is something called as "True Lies"
16/11/2008

The winds are blowing,
in the same direction.
The storm is again raging,
the fury of the past was buried,
but this time the levees,
were broken.

Silence was the hiding,
engulfing sorrow and pain.
It looked all too familiar,
like a long lost memory.

In that moment,
the end is wanted.
But edges save you.

A fall would give,
freedom to misery,
and flight to solace.

Parched and wounded,
illusions soon gather
the storm passes by
from dusk to dawn.

Then two angles walk in
song and dance follows
And all your left with is
these words of sorrow.


'Great Stories, Come out of Great tragedies'

Public Again!!!

I never though my absence would matter or even be noticed, feels nice that it does :P

But please don’t expect me to be regular and any sanity around here cuaz Iv kinda lost it these days.

Some recommended reads

‘The Kite Runner’ – Khalid Husseini
(one of it kind master piece, shows what Irony is made of)
If u’v read it then try his next ‘A thousand Splendid Suns’, all I’l say about it is after a lota cuts and bruises, a happy ending doesn’t hurt.

Freakonomic by Durban and Levitt – an interesting read breaks the molds of conventional economics; the blog is on my blogroll.

Of Course I love You by Durjoy and Maanvi, Durjoy is a fellow blogger, his blog ass-pyre. His blog inspired him to write the book and makes me believe that one day ill be out with my book too :D

On my playlist
New Shoes- Poulo Nutini
So What – Pink
Unforgiven-III – Metallica
The day that never comes - Metallica
I’m yours – Jason Marz

Have a great Diwali
But do your bit for the environment, please don’t use fireworks (some reasons for the same are; 60% of the workers in the fireworks industry are under 14 they are made to work in hazardous conditions with very little pay, the sound pollution is a nuisance for senior citizens, small kids and pets among others).
Indulge yourself in a bucket full of Baskin and Robin’s Bavarian Chocolate ice cream or go grab a beer ever better give some money to a charity.
Well I am doing all three.

:D

Kabhi Kabhi Aditi :D

Singing it for myself :P

Kabhi kabhi aditi zindagi mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai,
Kabhi kabhi aditi wo bichad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai,
Aise mein koi kaise apne aasuon ko behne se roke?
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be ok?

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi naa khushi aur naa mazaa,
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa,
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraye, kaise hass de khush hoke?
Aur kaise koi soch le everything gonna be ok?

Soch zara jaane jaa tujhko hum kitna chahte hai,
Rote hai hum bhi agar teri aankhon mein aasu aate hai,
Gaana to aata nahi hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hai,
Ki aditi maan kabhi , kabhi saare jahan mein andhera hota hai,
Lekin raat ke baad hi to savera hota hai..

Kabhi kabhi aditi zindagi mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai,
Kabhi kabhi aditi wo bichad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai,
Hey aditi hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de tu zara,
Nahi to bass thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura..

Tu khush hai to lage ki jahan mein chayee hai khushi,
Sooraj nikle badlon se,aur baaten zindagi,
Sun to zara madhosh hawa tujhse kehne lagi,
Ki aditi wo jo bichadte hai ek naa ek din phir mil jaate,
Aditi, jaane tu ya jaane naa phool phir khil jaate hai..

Kabhi kabhi aditi zindagi mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai,
Kabhi kabhi aditi wo bichad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai,
Hey aditi hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de tu zara,
Nahi to bass thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura..

Hey aditi hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de tu zara,
Nahi to bass thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura..
Hey aditi hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de tu zara,
Nahi to bass thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura..

Hey aditi hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de tu zara,
Nahi to bass thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura..
Hey aditi hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de tu zara,
Nahi to bass thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura..

:D

' The' vicious cycle :P

I read these lines a few weeks back somewhere,
And I dunno why, but I just cant stop laughing at them. :P

You break some hearts,
Some break yours.

Life it is,
a Vicious cycle :P

ROTFL